As Weeks Turn Into Days

Atlas! Approximately two days from now, the NLE results will be released. Everybody's waiting for the result. I don't know with them but I am confident that God will give what I fully deserve. I have my Savior and He is enough for me to relax, forget the anxieties and just hold onto His promises.

Waiting period tested a lot of board takers these past few days. It made me realized that people will only come to God, devote their time, pray every moment when they need God the most. I felt a bit sad knowing this fact that unless a man needs something, that very one thing, he will not talk to God. Sad reality. But there's still a part of me that is thankful, in one way or the other people still believe in God. And I am grateful, because millions of people living in this world, God knows me, He knows my name. He loves me and He cares for me. Amazing! It simply amazed me!

That is one of the reasons why I keep myself under His love. I knew a lot of non-believers, they believe that they will pass or even top the board exam. Yours truly is a certified servant of a living God, saved by His blood, redeemed, and forgiven. Is there anything that will make you believe that God isn't with me? :)

This big fight of faith is for HIM alone. To God be the glory.

Turning Point

One of the best highlight of my life was the day when I celebrated my 18th Birthday. The said celebration was a dream come true for my beloved Mom. Being the eldest child (daughter and granddaughter), she has been waiting for that the day to come. I could still remember when she kept on telling me, "oh malapit ka na magdebut..ganito..ganito..blah..blah." And honestly, she was more excited than me. I swear. :)

Originally, my birthday is November 30. I have to celebrate the so called "debut" on a Saturday night, December 1. because I still have my Nutrition class that time even if my real birthday was a non-working holiday declared by President Arroyo. I made an excuse letter for my professor telling her that I have to go home one day before my birthday and i would not be able to attend her class because of the celebration. I don't like absences so I have to ask my Mom several times if that was really alright. Then my Mom told me, "Oo naman ayos lang yun, isang beses lang magdedebut ang isang tao, gasino nang i-absent mo yang isang araw mo."

My 18th birthday ended so well with my thirty minutes speech. I was indeed thankful to God that time. I was not sure on how I will deliver my message to everyone, to my friends, family, and most especially to my loving parents. I am not the expressive type of daughter. But my 18th birthday was a great way used by God to express myself to my parents. Tears kept on flowing my cheeks, emotions were overflowing, I cried so hard telling them that I got tired of giving every expectations they have on me, that they had been hurting me emotionally for questioning my faith, that they don't have to judge me as quick as they can because God is on a process of making a better person in me. But despite all those things, I was able to tell them how I truly love and treasure them as my parents, and that is PRICELESS!

And now, three years after my 18th birthday, I am turning 21, I am more than happy to tell you that God worked, is working, and will be working forever in my life in terms of my relationship with my parents. I have told them that God knows how I respect and honor them as my parents, and I will be thankful for that beyond forever.

"Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you." Exodus 20:12

People Pleaser No More

Making friends with people around me was not an issue and never been an issue for me. The main problem to me during those times was the eagerness in me to please them, to do things they want me to do, to satisfy every demands, and to give their expectations all for their own satisfaction.


I lived that kind of life during my senior years in high school. I did every little thing just to make people around me proud. I was afraid to commit mistake. I was so paranoid of what people might think about me if i would not be able to do what they want. I observed my words, my actions, everything. That little expectation in me ruined my life so much. It brought a lot of confusion within myself, unending demands followed me. I was in my first year of being a Christian that time. Everything was unclear. Confusing. I was in need of someone who could make me feel that I am still worthy despite of failing. And I am glad Jesus showed me that I can have that 'someone' in Him.


Jesus' unfailing and unconditional love will always be enough for me to humble myself before anyone and anything. As I dwell in His word, I realized that what people say about me will not make me any lesser, what matter most is how many times God smiled back in every humility that I showed and in every weaknesses I had wherein His strength prevails. I learned how to please God and to show boldness on what i truly believed in.

"So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it." 2 Corinthians 5:9

As I go through the journey of my life, there are still people who will never get tired of saying bad things about me. Don't get me wrong, i love criticism, but critic me in a nice way. I am not perfect, but God is on a process of making the best out of me.
In the midst of an imperfect me, there are people who still believe in me :) Thank you! To God be the glory.

Thank you for believing in me, you don't know how you made me feel. I will make HIS name great! :)

E X P E C T A N T =)

I am now in the most difficult area of my life,  my career, i must say. I just took my board exam last July 3 and 4, 2010. I always remind myself that I should not be worried of anything. God is God and He can move mountains. Worries will not bring anything good to me. It will just bring insults to my God, that I am limiting Him for what He can do to my life.

"My journey in this life will always be with my God" -LEN

As I read from the Book of Numbers, God spoke to me through this verse:

"God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?" Numbers 23:19

This was a great reminder I received from God after taking the board exam. Actually there's a lot of verses that I think God wants me to hold on, but this one was different. It reminds me of who God is, how He differs from men, how faithful He is with His promises.

Sometimes, I doubt myself of my abilities, but every time I remember that God dwells in me, I TRUST MYSELF MORE LIKE HOW I TRUST IN GOD ALONE. I do not need anyone to boost my personalities, to make my surroundings optimist, GOD alone can do all those things, for with HIM, I am more than a conqueror. A warrior princess made to give glory to His name.

In few days from now, i will be receiving God's ever promise to me from the first day of my college years, and that is my LICENSE. 

In few days from now, i will be a REGISTERED NURSE, as God promised me.

In few days from now, i will be able to fulfill my promise to God that I WILL MAKE HIS NAME GREAT.

In few days from now, GOD's name will be exalted.

In few days from now, GOD is still my GOD.

ILOVEYOULORD:))

Let's have a walk

Walking our christian walk is not as easy as walking the hallway. It takes time to understand such things. It is not smooth sailing, it never was.

If we will not allow God to rule over our lives, we will not be able to see changes in our lives, and worst, we will not see God working in our lives. We are like trees planted as fruitless as it can be. Sometimes, people tend to disclaim that they have this one true God just to compromise with the pattern of this world. But it should not be, we live to give glory, to give honor, to exalt the Name of Jesus above all names.

Life is full of trials, even before i met my Savior, it was. But Jesus made my life a better turn when He rescued me and showed me His unfailing love. People might question your faith, but Jesus is enough to keep on holding on that only FAITH in HIM is what truly matters. People may doubt your abilities, but Jesus' won't. For He knows, as you continuously dwell on Him and trust His plans, you're in good hands.

No matter what life may bring, i will walk my christian walk. :))

Better Friends than Lovers

“True Love isn’t just expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or embrace; before two people are married, love is expressed in self-control, patience even word left unsaid.” –an excerpt from I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris

How hard is it to put boundaries between Friendship and Love? It’s somewhat unexplainable. Friendship always comfort, Love sometimes hurts. Which do you prefer? To fall in love with a friend or to be a friend to someone you loved? It sounds the same and it hurts the same.

I have been in this kind of dilemma, and it was really tough to deal with. Especially if you have fallen for a friend and did not able to tell that friend how you really felt when you were desperately in love with him.

Do you know what the harder part is? It’s when that special friend makes you feel treasured as if the feeling is mutual. The time that you spent together will never fill the emptiness that you have inside, knowing that you cannot do anything about your feelings but to hide and keep it to yourself.

With due respect to myself, I kept that feelings for a very long time. I stand firm over my emotions and help myself to prevail more than what I perhaps can do. I don’t know how do you call that, moving on or moving away?

Every day is not just a new day for me, it’s another day of dilemma, because I know in a fact that we will be spending our time together and it will be hard for me to defy my feelings, again. But during those times, I equipped myself with prayers and I surrendered my dilemmas to God. I believed that God is willing to work it out for me.

The book of Joshua Harris was a great instrument used by God for me to redefine my feelings and reset my sentiments for that special friend. As I go through its chapters, I knew from the start that God is really at work with my sensations. I realized and understood every aspect of my difficulties, and the reasons behind those situations that I’ve been into. I find out that there should be a firm foundation of friendship before anything else. I also discovered that unless you are ready for marriage, it’s not yet the time to commit yourself to someone. Everything takes place on its perfect time.

Friendship should not be the reason to get closer to someone you perceived to be your future mate; working with them should not be out of wrong intentions and must be out of genuine love, love like what Jesus showed.

After reading the said book, I pray harder to God for His continuous guidance in terms of loving someone, it might be out of my standard but as long as it is God’s standard, it will unquestionably ideal. God knows what is best.

For now, I already examined my heart just before that special friend, and I therefore conclude that being his friend is what God wants me to carry out as of this time, because if it is God’s will, it will happen, if it is not God’s will, I know that God will give what I fully deserve.

So even if my words for that special friend left unsaid, in God’s perfect time, if he will be the one that God have saved for me, I will be more than willing to let him know how I felt before. But if not, words are really meant to be left unspoken.

It is Worth The Wait

“I am doing a work of perfection in you. When I place you with your mate, you will see that all these things have taken place so I can be glorified through your lives as a couple. Your testimony belongs to me.” –an excerpt from What to do until love finds you

As I turned 19 last November 30, I realized that by this time, the following days until I attain my 20th birthday next year will be the last days of my teenage life. I am turning 20 by that time, and it supposed to be quite alarming. Why? Because the man of my life haven’t come my way yet, but since I have my faith with me, I am not alarmed nor bothered.

Looking back on my old insight, I am in doubt of my future and I could not do anything about it, but knowing who holds my future makes an immense difference. For God’s servants, victory rest with us, and it was 2000 years ago when God won it for all of us.

As what everybody says, “Hindi yan hinahanap, darating din yung taong para sayo..” And even my Mom told that to me. I know, True Love Waits, and I can patiently wait. I am not in a hurry and I do not rush things for my own sake. I remember a line from the book I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris, “Like fruit picked green, like a flower plucked before it blossoms, our attempt to rush God’s timing can spoil the beauty of His plans for our lives.” The simplicity of the message of this line strikes me from within. I knew people who impatiently involve themselves in a relationship even if they know from the start that they will just end up quickly. I cannot understand their point. It’s not love at all; it’s being self-centered and arrogant headed for an instant recognition. The mentality of many seems to be worldly, which makes me feel a little bit gloomy, that maybe, just maybe, all of the men have cluttered their mind with false mindset.

It’s not every day that you will meet someone that would possibly make you feel loved and cherished. Someone that will not critic the whole you but sees what’s adorable in you. If that’s the case, examine your heart, because sometimes, love makes you too blind to see what’s really God wants you to see. Our feelings should not just be the basis when we fall in love. It could be unreliable most of the time because love is unexplainable until I met my Savior and redefined it for me. It’s more than the sweet smiles that my crush has to offer, it’s more than a flower that I will be soon receiving, it’s about what Jesus did on the cross just to pay our debt and save us from the foreseen sufferings. And I know that God had prepared the man of His standard, not my standard, for me. God may be seldom early but will never be late, for His timing is perfect for those who chose to obey.

Bravo kaibigan! Let us just delight ourselves to God and let God work for that matter, let us not set standards for our future husband and wife, but let us be the standard for them to look for. It might be a long wait, but for sure, it will worth the wait.