041915|BREAKING THE FAST

Jeddah- 3AM | Philippines- 8AM

This is how we do it.

Yey! Finally, we see each other again. I miss you.

My prayers are all the same. 

To be under God's will as we walk along our journey as couple

To have His strength in the midst of our battlefield

To love God above all

To clean our heart and mind towards lustful thoughts.

To guard our heart towards anything

To do only what pleases the Lord

To flee from anything that will dishonor God

Thank You Lord for being our faithful God!

To you be the highest GLORY!

❤️💕

DAY 7: IN THE MIDST OF OUR BATTLEFIELD

Yey! Last day today and tomorrow will be our breaking the fast! Im excited to see my bebsy!! Thank you Lord for your faithfulness in our lives. May you be forever magnified in all things. May your strength be forever our strength. Lord I pray that you will continuously guard our heart towards anything that will dishonor you. Protect our thoughts from lustful things. Remind us to always fix our eyes on you. I know Lord that as much as we wanted to do things to glorify you, Satan is just around the corner looking at our weakest point to devour us. Lord please dont allow it. Lord please protect us all the time. Give us wisdom to know if we are about to dishonor you in any ways even in small things. Lord all I want is this relationship to be pleasing to you, to bring more glory to your name. Thank you Lord. 

In Jesus' mighty and powerful name, AMEN.

DAY 6: IN THE MIDST OF OUR BATTLEFIELD

I am too emotional if I did not receive offline messages from him. ;(

I miss him.

DAY 5: IN THE MIDST OF OUR BATTLEFIELD

To wake up each day reading his goodmorning messages is one of the many things that could make me happy :)

As we go along on this journey, I still have a lot of things to learn about us but I am thankful because thru this mutual decision that we had, our conversation became more genuine. Thank you Lord. Please keep us this way... IN JESUS' NAME AMEN!!!

He called me at 1am to say i love you.. One minute call to make my sleep more sweet and wonderful.. 

I woke up with a smile on my face as I listen to his morning audio message.

Such a wonderful feeling. I love you Lord! ❤️

Day 4: IN THE MIDST OF OUR BATTLEFIELD

I need nothing but full submission to His will and to be reminded of my commitment to the Lord and my covenant with Him.

To have God in the center of a relationship is to fully submit to His commands and His will. This is easier said than done. I admit it. I am on my weakest point when it comes to decision making in this time of my life. I dont know. But I fully trust God with His plan.

I hate it everytime I measure his (Manuel) love for me the way I wanted it to be measured. But I know he loves me in his own ways. I just have to help myself to stop overthinking.. Hay nako Len! :-/

Lord, please renew my mind and heart. In Jesus' name, AMEN.

Let this season to be just full of love. :)

Lord, I am remembering my covenant with you. I love you! 

Matthew 6:33. Proverbs 3:5-6

DAY 3: IN THE MIDST OF OUR BATTLEFIELD

As we go a long in this painful process of being apart and not seeing each other even in video calls, Satan has his own way to distract us. He will hit me bullseye with my emotions.

He knows his target. He knows what to do to make me fall on my knees. 

Lord help me to overcome this emotions.

It's not healthy. Allow me to find my worth in you. 

Because you love me so much and you even died for me. Let me not forget that.

I love you Lord. :(

DAY 2: IN THE MIDST OF OUR BATTLEFIELD

I am more than grateful. Thank you Lord for your convictions. Thank you for letting this habit be back. Please help us to be consistent on this, especially on our quiet time. 

1258AM in Jeddah 0558AM in Philippines. While I am sleeping soundly he is about to start his day at work. :)

0321AM here in Jeddah, my waking time when I'm on duty. Good morning bebsy ko! :)

Good morning selfie before work. :)

Thank you Lord for your faithfulness in our relationship. This is all for your glory! :)

Day 1: IN THE MIDST OF OUR BATTLEFIELD

We have been through a lot of struggle about our relationship. But God's strength will be our forever strength. We may be weak but our God is the strongest. ;)

Solid one hour. Quality time. Spent well. 

Prayer. Our solid foundation since the beginning of our relationship. And Satan is always just around the corner to distract us! BUT HEY, OUR GOD IS BIGGER!

Day 1. Repentance. Our turning point. We have decided to fast our video calls so we can have more quality talks not just missing each other too much.

Thank you Holy Spirit for your conviction to both of us.

To God be the glory! 

How love can travel

Love can travel the distance when it is true.....and it can wait.

True love waits.

I always believe in love. That people who are meant for each other will meet in God's own timetable. I'm glad that I have found my one true love in 2009 and had our relationship in 2011.

2014 when I left Philippines to work in KSA. But our love for each other remains, no matter what the circumstances are.

We've gotta keep it going. We have to keep our relationship strong. We have to conquer the hardship together and still choose each other NO MATTER WHAT.

My prayers would always be strength, wisdom, and spiritual growth for both of us. Strength to overcome everything on our own without the help of each other because we are apart. Wisdom in terms of decision making. Spiritual growth to prepare each of us in the near future when God allow us to settle down, we will be more equipped and ready to face anything and everything. In our brokenness we fully found dependence in God's mighty power.

Kumpleto ang araw ko kapag nagkita na kami sa video call, kapag may offline message sya sa wechat or sa fb messenger or sa imessage, kapag nagpadala sya ng goodmorning selfie picture nya going to work.

Hayyy sarap gumising araw araw. :)

Pero there were times na pag gising ko walang message kahit isa. Of course I will get mad. Sinong hindi? And then the World War III will begin. Hahahaha.

We had our so many fights over the phone all because of me. Hindi kasi sya nang aaway. Ako lang. Pero kasi its all because of his actions kaya ako nagagalit. May mga times na hindi nga sya nagmemessage kaya naiinis ako. Pero narerealize ko din naman agad na may sarili syang buhay at may trabaho din sya. Napapagod. Nalululungkot kaya natutulog na lang. E di okay inintindi ko na lang kahit hindi ko maintindihan. Basta lagi ko sinasabi ayaw ko na sya awayin at ayaw ko na magalit kasi malayo kami. Ang hirap makipagaway. Ang hirap talaga. So hanggat maaari, huwag mang away Len ha! I just have to be more secured with his love for me. And he loves me a lot. No doubt. :)

Our first facetime call. :) thank you technology! Thank you Lord! Hehe.

During his breaktime at work. 12noon in Ph, 7am in KSA. 

Lunchbreak calls are only possible during my day off, usually Tuesday, Friday and Saturday, and if it is not a "working breaktime" for him. 

His good morning face! And my goodnight face! 6am in Ph, 1am in KSA.

If my rest day will be tomorrow, I will stay up late tonight waiting for him to wake up. Or sometimes I will wake him up hehehe! Since mahina signal sa apartment nila, nagpunta sya sa gate para malakas ang signal. Minsan lang yan kaya kailangan sulitin hahahaha. :)

At kapag hindi na talaga kaya ng video call or voice call, ayan audio call na lang. Lahat na ng paraan. Hahahaha! We will find ways. BDO ang peg. :)

His birthday gift for me. A birthday song. Hahahaha happy birthday to me! 113014 

Mahilig talaga sya gumawa ng kanta at kumanta. E di siempre kilig kilig ako. Sana laging ganito. Haha.

He bought this for himself. But the songs are for me. Nag violin pa! Hindi nakuntento sa gitara. Haha! Kaya kita love eh! :)

This was his first song for me. ;-) 091914

Kahit anong itsura mo be ang gwapo mo sa paningin ko nakakainis haha. Di naman ako ganito noon bakit naging ganito na ko? Ganito yata kapag nasa malayo. :) 

Ayan. Yung mga ganyan kong itsura mga tipong kasi may laro sya. Usually kasi nakikisabay pa yang basketball na yan sa day off ko eh. Hahaha kainis wala naman akong laban. Not once yan ha, kaagaw ko talaga sa oras at atensyon yang basketball na yan eh. Kagaya nito.

Ayan..dyan ka magaling Manuel Valdez Soria IV!

Eto kasing mga toh eh imbis na naguusap lang kami eh may abala pa. Hahahahaha nanisi.

Anyways, I am still happy sa kung ano ang meron kami ngayon. Masaya ako kasi we can keep our communication like this. I just pray that we will stay this way or if not, better than these things, until my contract ends. 

I am happy and grateful having him in my life. Someone who understands my unpredictable tantrums and still love me the same.

Thank you Lord for this wonderful blessing.

I love you bebsy ko! :)

Every chance we get

We always find ways to keep in touch. Even if the connection sucks.

We will wait ... Just to see each other's smile. :-)

On his way going to site. Nakaw na sandali. Bitin moments. 

Probinsya calls. With so much love from Tarlac to Jeddah. :)

Sa bahay namin. His good morning face before leaving our house. :)

Tindero sumasideline. :)

Ayan no pansin nagcocomputer eh. -.-

On his way to Tarlac. Probinsyano. :)

Puyat calls. 2am in Ph, 9pm in KSA. 

After graduation of my lil brother. 32615

Baluuuuuutttttt.

Memories soon to be cherished. Cant wait to finally seeeeeee yooouu. ;-)

I love you bebsy ko!!:-)

Little things <3

    This is how he do it. 

He loves music, he loves me so he did these things. And will do more to express how much he loves me even if we are miles away.

Hahahaha ilang kanta na ba ang nakanta mo para sa akin? Ilang kanta na din ba ang nasulat mo? Sa dami kasi hindi ko na mabilang. Kahit feeling mo minsan hindi ko naappreciate, naappreciate ko kaya. Di lang halata. Kahit alam mong nakakahiya kapag inupload mo sa facebook, you still do. Thank you. Mahal kita lagi. :)

I love you bebsy ko! :) 

New Battlefield

We have our own battlefield to face. My relationship with him is a personal decision I made to face our battlefield together. We truly cannot overcome everything but by the grace of God.

He is not a techy person. His smart phone was stolen before. When I left the country and started working in KSA, our new battlefield began.

The first month of my stay here was really a struggle. We communicate only thru our roaming numbers because he doesnt owns a smart phone yet. He bought a second hand laptop and a pocket wifi before. But his place has a poor signal. There are time that we will see each other thru skype if the signal is good.

During his breaktime at work. 

Days became harder for us, his pocket wifi was broken. This time, he will go to his sister place just to use the desktop and call me immediately because I am being mad already hahahaha. (Sorry, babae eh.)

Iyak muna ako bago pa pilitin makigamit ng desktop sa Ate nya. Hahaha kasi ginagamit din lagi sa work kaya tiempo lang din. Len kasi intindihin mo naman! Hahahahaha

And worst comes to worst, he will rent in a computer shop just to call me. Minsan sira headset. Walang mic. Walang webcam. Maingay. May nagsisigawan. May malakas na tunog ng tricycle. Nakakaloka. Hahaha.

Makita ko lang sya masaya na ako talaga. 

There were also times that he will visit my family and stay overnight to make sure he will be able to call me thru my Mom's tablet and our wifi connection at home. My house is 2hours away from his apartment. I live in Tanay, Rizal, he is renting an apartment in Pasig City.

Eating his breakfast in our house (with my family) before leaving. 

Tindero sa tindahan ni Tyo Mand's pag may time habang nakikipagkulitan sakin gamit ang tab ni Mama ko. Hahaha

Frustrated to make a personal composition just for me. Recorded in a tablet, lyrics viewed on a laptop. This was in Tanay.

Virtual kisses. :-)

The struggle that we have about our relationship is also our family's struggle. I have my Tita who have also experienced being in a long distance relatioship. God uses people to bless us without even knowing it. They sold to us her husband's used iPhone for a very affordable price to be paid anytime hahaha. On last week of October he finally got the iPhone and I was the happiest creation on earth. Hahaha!

This is our first ever WeChat conversation using his iPhone, with his own account. Super happy namin! :-)

Jeddah is 5hours late in the Philippines. His sleeping time is still early evening here in KSA. So we usualy ended our conversation like this. But who cares, seeing him is more than enough for me. :)

We did a lot of adjustment in our relationship since we enter this LDR thing. Mahirap. Maraming pwedeng mangyari na walang may gustong mangyari. Pero para sa amin, hanggat kaya namin, we chose to stay in love beyond the distance. All by the grace of God.

I love you bebsy ko! Always. :-)

That so called LDR

Are you brave enough to be in a relationship? To love selflessly? To love beyond imperfections? To stay no matter what and where life will bring you together? Are you brave enough to be in a Long Distance Relationship? 

Most of the time, after his work, he will travel almost 2hours to spend time with me. He is really a visual lover. I mean he loves it when we are together, when he hears my voice, when we laugh together, eat together, walk together, everything that we can do together he will find ways to spend it all with me. I love him. But not enough to be too expressive when we are together. I am not the sweet type girlfriend.

We've been together since May 2011. Broke up last April 2012, and back in the relationship on March 2013 and making the most of everything to still be in faith together as we face our relationship, our own, little and plain battlefield, to long distance relationship.

Our relationship is not perfect. We fight like the usual relationship that you know. But that fight were all created by me, me, me, me. We had a lot of temptations physically, but by the grace of God we are still able to stand firmly with our faith. We get too intimate at times but still preserving our first kiss. We still believe that sex is the best gift when it is in the boundary of marriage. So, we command our hormones to just be still. (Hahaha.) It's hard because we are human but God will remain God, and He can.

September 3, 2014. Last hug. No kiss. :( praying when to finally have that first intimate kiss I have been longing for. In time, God knows when. 

Welcome to that so called LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP! 

:)

Days before I left Philippines.

I love you bebsy ko.. I miss you so much! :(

National Emotional Day --090314.

Twas a wonderful morning. I got to see these people before I leave. I visited my Nanay and Tatay. It's my Nanay's birthday when I left the Philippines. Iyak moments. 

My youngest brother wasnt able to come with us in the airport because he still has classes. My sister file a vacation leave and we fetch her midway. 

My boyfriend, Manuel, spent the whole day with me before I leave. 

Lungkot.

Kung pwede lang hindi umalis. :(

All my bags are packed, Im not ready to go. 😔

Nanay, Happy birthday! Mwahhhhh!!

My Tatay Eddie. 

Papa ❤️

Mama❤️

Tito Intoy ☺️

Ariane ❤️

Aaron ❤️

Ara❤️

Girl power❤️

Bebsy ko 💕😘😍💋

I miss them all right at this very moment. Lord uwi muna ako? Balikan lang. Hihihi!

Just grateful.

I thank God for being so faithful in my life even if I dont deserve it. He had provided me a very comfortable home in our accomodation, He gave me a spiritual family thru Pastor James and TGIA, He sustained me everyday here in the Kingdom. He protects me all the time and most of all I am able to support my family back in the Philippines.

Everything I have now, I awe it all to my Faithful God.. To You be all the highest praises and glory!!

My DaVita Teammates Wave 3 during our Graduation. Last day of training after return demos.

My TGIA Family with Pastor James and Tita Naomi.

My first birthday in KSA. 

My teammates. Charge Nurse, Staff Nurses, Admin and Dietician.

Ocular visit to Reem Riviera. 

The perks of working in KSA. Wearing my tarha.

My DaVita East Jeddah family. :)

My first Christmas in KSA. Celebrated it with my spiritual family. :-)

My first cable car experience in Taif, KSA.

My first speedboating experience in Obhur Jeddah KSA.

---will blog more soon!! :-)