[ `` MY MAN ``]

Manuel Valdez Soria IV is the name.

He is my man.

The one who asked me from God.

The one who waited for the right time for both of us.

The one who fully trust God to answer his prayers, and that is to have me.

He is not perfect, but I love him.

He let me feel so loved and cared for.

He is the one that the Lord saved for me.

And I love him for the rest of my life.

He is someone I cannot boast fully to everybody, but I am willing to do so.

He makes me laugh, He makes me smile, and most of all He respects me.

He understands my tantrums and embraces them all.

He never fails to accept me and love me just the way I am.

I thank God for including this man in the scene of my life.

Though he has his own imperfections, I know God loves him a lot more than I can do.

He was once washed and redeemed by the blood of Jesus,

and there's no way for me not to love him.

I love this MAN. And I will make God's name great with our love story.

Love.Love.Love

I LOVE YOU! <3

The Long Wait is OVER, Let's start Our FOREVER ;]

Exactly one month when we decided to freeze our communication, me and him, Manuel is the name. It was on the last days of March when we started to communicate again, from not texting to texting me again, from not visiting to visiting me again, from no phone calls to phone calls again. He visited me again and continued the courtship with me. I don't know what was the Lord's purpose of allowing us to be together again, what I know is, it was because of a purpose.

I never get tired of asking the Lord for the right time for both of us. I have my own things, personal things to consider before entering a relationship with someone. And allowing him to court me is but a sign of considering him as my future partner, God permits. =) I have my list of plans on hand, one of the reasons why I cannot give my precious 'YES' to him. Like establishing a cell group first to disciple any of my friends, or people outside my group, and so on. That was my immediate plan. And all the way, I was with the Lord in every decision that I made.

The Lord spoke to me (same way and manner when he spoke to me to freeze for a while) during my devotion time @ KEPCO. It was in Ecclesiastes 11:9 "Be happy, young man, while you are young, and let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth. Follow the ways of your heart and whatever your eyes see, but know that for all these things God will bring you to judgment." I have been asking the Lord when to start my forever with this man, and with this verse I found my security to finally commit, to enjoy this stage of my life remembering that in every action that I will make, the Lord will put me to judgment. Either good or bad. I prayed harder to the Lord if this is really what He wants me to do. I don't wanna be in wrong side of making decision, for as long as I am guided by the Lord, I am more than alright.

May 8-- it was a beautiful Sunday for the both of us. He visited me early in the morning and attended the morning service at CLS. I have this idea to finally have a commitment with him. I texted my trusted friends to be with me in prayers the whole day. After the service we went home to have our lunch at home (which we usually do), went back to church for youth bible study with CLS Youth and Ptr. Medel. At 3pm he dropped me off @ hospital for my 3-11 duty, he went home and stayed with my siblings @ home and watched movie. At 11pm he picked up from hospital and brought me home safe. It was a rainy night so he stayed a bit. We exchange stories and then that was the time I actually say YES. Without him knowing that I have plans to start my forever with him at that very moment. He was shocked, obviously, and the rest is history. The last part that didn't come up even in my wildest imagination is when he asked me to pray for him. He held my hand and we did pray for each other. That was the most touching part I wouldn't forget.

I will forever be amazed on how God put us together, it's beyond my expectations. And yes, OUR FOREVER has just begun. =)

I love you MVSIV! =))

More Than A Fairytale

Growing up, I always dream of a much like fairytale love story with of course a happy ending. Who wouldn't love that? Every girl's dream. And yes, I am also a victim of that kind of love story, an illusion of a secular love story.

My perception about love was redefined when I understood how valuable I am in God's sight. God loves me and He has a wonderful plan for my life so I have to take good care of myself in relation with others, with that, God's goodness will manifest in my life then they will find me worth loving, and worth waiting for. I keep my standards high, not to impress anyone but to guard my heart towards people who will plan to pursue me. It's  my God-given wisdom to set my standards high, for I know God saved that special man for me in His own perfect time. Someone who's not perfect, but is willing to ask my hand and pursue me no matter how hard it will be.

Prayers played an important role in my life as I make major decisions in life. I always asked God if this is the right time for me to be in a relationship with someone. I am done with schooling, a Bachelor's Degree holder and a Registered Nurse, what else? Am I not that ready? I have done my part! I studied well, I obeyed my parents, I waited so long!! So can I just give myself a break? I hardened my heart for a while. I kept on insisting that maybe God wanted me to experience the feeling of being loved by someone. And yes God allowed it to happened but not exactly being in a commitment.

I felt the love that I have been looking for from someone. The feeling of being loved, cared, and missed. I just love it every time I remember that I have this special man willing to pursue me no matter what. It is unexplainable. I let this special man to court me, with my parent's permission. He visited me every week from Taguig-Tanay. We went out together, we went out with friends, we went out with family, we were happy. I was so happy. He made me smile, he made me laugh. He sang me a song. He gave me gifts. We went to church together. We remind each other about our Christian walk, about our ultimate lover. He introduced me to his sisters, my entire family knew him well. I knew him more than his name. We held hands, we hugged occasionally, but then, he is but a suitor.

I planned to finally say 'Yes' to him on the 1st of March. But unexpectedly God spoke to me in Galatians 5 during my quality time @KEPCO. I think there's still a lot of things that the Lord wants me to do before having a relationship with somebody. I still have to fulfill myself in serving Him more. So I have decided to cut our communication, from daily texting, phone calls up to messages on facebook. I also told him not to visit me for the mean time. I prayed harder to the Lord on how I am going to say these things in the midst ofour happiness and contentment. But then, God intervened and everything went well. Though its hard, I know we both understand His purpose. One thing is for sure, i am faithfully waiting for the right time to start my forever with him.

To you, i miss you! :(