One thing is for sure, I did not live a wasted life, and I never dreamed of living one. All by the grace of God I believe I surpassed the challenges that I faced in this journey of mine in the past two years.
To sum up all things, here's a short recap of my life in two years time.
March 19, 2013--- I went to Manuel's province with my sibling, Ariane, and there we have decided to have our relationship back. Twas a hard decision and I believe God was and is with us all throughout of our relationship---and yes, up to this time.
Our decision to again involve ourselves in a relationship was a tough one, INDEED. We chose to continue to fight in faith not anymore in SOLO, but DUO in the BATTLEFIELD. You know, it's easier to say "I want my life to be pleasing with the LORD so I will stop our relationship, blah blah blah.." somehow it helped me and it made me really a better person, the span of one year gave me enough time to grow and to think about many things, a lot of time to pray about those things... and God wants us to be in the BATTLEFIELD, where struggles, problems, temptations are, and ONLY THE GOODNESS OF THE LORD WILL BE MAGNIFIED!
And really, we had a lot, I almost give up the relationship, hot-cold-lukewarm and all but one thing remain, HIS GOODNESS in our lives. There's nothing in me that I can brag about my walk with the LORD, in fact, I became the worst example of a Christian before him that nobody knows, except him. And he still chose to love me, despite all. And yeah, VICE VERSA. We have seen the best and the worst in us.
Temptations over little hugs to more than hugs, kisses and too much intimacy, but ofcourse still NO SEX and NO INTIMATE KISSES before marriage (as our personal covenant with God), kept me off guard, I became too comfortable with him and I hate myself for that. I became distant to God, irregular to no quiet time--- I saw myself just crying and looking for help, and God is still there, picked me up and STILL LOVE me, His undeserving people. Many times I pleaded to God to please take away everything including my relationship with him. I no longer find it helpful to my growth, instead I found it as a distraction. And God spoke to me thru 2 Samuel 22:47-51:
“The Lord lives! Praise be to my Rock!
Exalted be my God, the Rock, my Savior! He is the God who avenges me, who puts the nations under me, who sets me free from my enemies.You exalted me above my foes; from a violent man you rescued me.
Therefore I will praise you, Lord, among the nations;
I will sing the praises of your name. he shows unfailing kindness to his anointed,
to David and his descendants forever.”
“He gives his king great victories;
he shows unfailing kindness to his anointed,
to David and his descendants forever.”
Through this, I know God is forever at work in my life, in our lives. I know he (Manuel) is from God and there's no way that Satan will rule over our relationship. We will have struggles, we will have temptations but those things will not stop us to pursue God in or relationship, instead, IT WILL BE PART of God's wonderful story on how we were able to overcome everything not by our own power but BY HIS GRACE and by HIS POWER THROUGH THE WORK OF THE HOLY SPIRIT. I know, our story will be told all throughout the NATION TO BRING GLORY TO HIS WONDERFUL NAME!
Thank you LORD and ALL GLORY belongs to YOU ONLY!
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