Being in a relationship wasn't my first dream since I came to know Jesus. My Christian life helped in various ways to prioritize things in my life. I have learned what to do first and what to do last. Finishing school was first in the line, passing the board exam was my ultimate dream, and working as a nurse is beyond what I've been wanted to do in my life, and of course those were next to serving and honoring God in everything that I do.
When he came into my life, I wasn't in need of a boyfriend. Knowing him was like a bonus, and letting him court me and actually showing up to my entire family were like more than a fairytale to me. We started right. We met in church, we discuss about faith, we pray together. We were not just boyfriend/girlfriend, we're actually friends, best of friends. We shared a lot of stories in our lives and I thank God for allowing us to know each other better and deeper.
He knows how much I love him, I know how much he loves me.
Our family and friends witnessed this one year of love in us. It may be disappointing to hear this from me, but I'm making it public. I have decided to end our relationship 11 days before we celebrate our supposed to be 1st Year Anniversary last May 8, 2012. It was not a mutual decision, it was actually my decision. It's a God-given decision that I have to do. It will never be as easy as you think. It's hard.
But I am confident to let you go. Our life after this separation will determine if we're really meant for each other. I trust God enough to trust you that you will be doing just fine even without me. You know it so well how grateful I am for having you as my first boyfriend, for the love you've given me, and for the respect you've shown me. I never regret the time I've spent with you. Thank you for preserving me as God's woman, and thank you for saving our first kiss, it's more than the respect that I deserved to have. Thank you.
"The key to finding out if this really is "your" man is in being willing and able to completely let go."
"If this man is indeed, God's choice for you, despite the spiritual and physical circumstances, you can count on looking down the road and seeing your "Jonah" making his way up the path when you least expect it. And when he returns, he will be a new man."
Im glad because after all, we're still friends. No regrets, like why we did this, why we did that. It's a clear break up that the both of us may grow deeper in the Lord, though in separate ways but one in spirit.
Manuel, mag iingat ka palagi. HA!! God bless!
-Len.5-11-12-
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